Lets start there. A couple of years ago there I was, riding my bike. We were a one car family. I will save you the details, but the first few years of our married life were very hard financially. So when I look at today, and this past year alone its hard not to be thankful. Besides the fact that right now I am sitting in front of my computer in my comfortable home. I am also listening to Blues Traveler. You cant help but be in a good mood listening to them. Anyway, I sit here listening to the sound of my youngest breathing. I hear the footsteps of my oldest who is supposed to be napping, and I am thankful. I was told I would never have children at the age of nineteen. They are my poof of my amazing God. I cant stop there though. Back to the car situation. Somehow or another in less than two years we find ourselves the owners of three cars, and a motorcycle. I'm not telling you to brag, I'm telling you so you can understand something. God has blessed us beyond what we could have imagined. There was a point that I found myself selling anything of any value so we could pay bills, so we had food. None of it adds up. I stay at home, and My husband makes a good living, but for us to have almost no debt and live in the home we do can only be because of one thing. God.
I'm thankful every year don't get me wrong. This past year was horrible. I honestly didn't think I would make it through, and at times still cant believe it when I look back. My son was conceived shortly after we lost a baby at 8 weeks. Shortly after we got pregnant with him I had a large bleed. At seven months I started going into labor and stayed in an off and on labor for the remainder of the pregnancy. We had surgery when he was still in utero because I was going into renal failure. I had 4 kidney stones and was in and out of the hospital. It was bad. All that along with the loss of two dogs we were almost a bad country western song.
I hear him snoring right now, and my first little miracle is singing some made up song thinking that I cant hear her. Had my husband not gotten into the fire department last year we would not have had the insurance to cover all of the bills, as well as the money to sustain a family of four.
Here's my point; He knows. Sometimes life can feel impossible, and scary. Trust me, I get it. However, God knows. If we learn to trust Him then when we are in the middle of this stuff we will know its gonna be okay. So why am I so thankful? My husband is at his fire station succeeding and loving his job. He is respected by his peers, and honored by many. My Daughter is amazing, witty, precocious, and very much an individual. My Son is alive and healthy. He has a smile that can turn the gray to sunshine. If that's not enough I have more than I need. The most important thing is knowing that I have a God that knows, everything. He loves me so much that he died for me. Before I was even conceived He knew the trials, and He knew how He would be glorified.
